Why not just be human...

i wanted to be in defense
i was very patriotic
i then got cancer
somehow i didnt feel that much
what made me sad
was my father struggling
working day and night
to give me treatment

i was a good child
i think i still am
i want to make them proud
now i want to struggle
i love my brother too
we dont express much
but he sometimes feels it too
for me that is enough

it was 1990
i was just 5
it was 2005
i was just 20
i have been troubled
but i have no regrets
my 3 passions in life
my parents, cancer, & myself

i see the rainbow
i know u see it too
u may like it for the colors
and the hue that it creates too
but just imagine if
its there all the time
it would lose its specialty
in no time
i love the rainbow
not for the colors
but its lasts just 2 minutes
and creates its special hue

i wanted to be in defense
i was very patriotic
i then got cancer
and now i realize
why not just be human
was chemo made only for indians
if it wasn't for this world this day
i would not be alive today

For what it's worth...

It’s been more than a year…
Since I jotted down my experience
Was it not worth it?
Or was I not worth it?

Let’s talk about Medicine
Where have we actually reached?
Have we advanced in treatment?
Have we achieved the inevitable?

I was summoned if I may say,
To help a neighbor, to help a friend
To help the family, through this tough period
Most of all, the lady in distress

I went for the session & heard her out
Refreshed my subject and then I spoke
I doubted myself, yes I did
Hadn’t dealt with so much pain, in a very long time

I spoke what was conventional,
I couldn’t reach out to her,
Did I lack that knowledge?
Or was it jus strength?
Or was it something more?
Was I ready to accept?
That this time it’s inevitable?
And there may be life ‘no more’…

It’s been more than a year…
Since I jotted down my experience
Was this worth it?
Or was I worth it?